So for the last 2 years I've been a stay at home mom (full time) and a model (occasionally). And for the most part I've felt hugely cut off from my peers and uncomfortable around other (older) stay home moms. Reasons being: Very few of my friends have kids, and even fewer of them have kids and are able to stay home from work. I was lucky. Most stay home moms are older and don't connect as well to a 21yr old. Nevermind a young mom who gets naked on the interwebs... Which didn't exactly bode well for a healthy state of mind when paired with the fact that for the longest time I thought mentioning my son or my 'normal' life would be a taboo subject to bring up in any connection to my modeling.

So! I've come to the conclusion that my 'normal' life is the essence of what drives me to do any and all things artistic. And that I'm thrilled that my son will get to grow up in a freespirited household, loved and cherished by family and friends, no matter who unconventional some of our friends are I know they love my kid.

It all plays a part in what makes me : me. So while I'm not going to change the intent of the blog to be more 'parentish'.. I'm also not going to omit things from my thought process like I've been doing in the last 2 years worth of posts.

So! On that note, today I met a lovely gal and her son. I'm going to be babysitting her son during the days, and in the new year may even consider turning my place into a small day home for preschoolers. I've always loved kids and kids seem to tolerate me, and if it keeps me from having to sell my soul while acting the part of some sluty beer tub bitch... then I'm all for it.

It's going to be slightly harder to take trips for my modeling, but not impossible. And the income I'll bring in will not only hopefully clear me from the red but help me actually afford some new latex and a few plane tickets for 2010. Because if this all goes as I hope, 2010 will be an eventful year!


I still intend to keep pictures of my boy few and far between but I thought it was fitting for todays post.